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There are two confessionals in that baroque
church, remember? He always queues at the one at the back, the one in shadow.
He always disappears so quietly and diplomatically then reappears from the dark
as if he was never gone. Into the dusk of the wooden, carved, ornamented box.
Coarse coughing gives him away. The evening sieves through its grid between the
forgiver, the forgiven. This Sunday morning, you say, one of them is out of
order. There is heavy breathing, panting, snoring streaming out of the fissures
of the wood. Attention flies out of the building. The priest’s words,
disoriented, circulate like the bat’s flight we woke to one summer night,
adrift in its circular voyage on our ceiling unable to find an exit. The vet
says it might have nested in the invisible cavern behind the pelmet and perhaps
by now brought forth a bat family. The ladder he uses is several metres long,
he leans it upright, against his own reflection in the window. Directing it
towards the sky. He requests silence. Gently tapping along the curtain rod
centimetre by centimetre for something as soft, inept, dormant as a dream.
Ágnes
Lehóczky is an Hungarian-born poet
and translator. Her first full collection, Budapest
to Babel, was published by Egg Box
in 2008; her second one, Rememberer in 2012 (Egg Box) includes "Torso in the Window". Her
collection of essays on the poetry of Ágnes Nemes Nagy, Poetry, the Geometry
of Living Substance, was published
in 2011 by Cambridge Scholars. She currently teaches creative writing
at the University of Sheffield.